I'm confused often, at least I think so. Maybe that's just normal – who knows?! I reckon I'm confused about 50% of the time, meaning that I don't have a clear knowing of the path ahead of me. It sounds crazy, I'm sorry. I guess it's just tough to make sense of it, you know?
Anyway, so I'm often in the dark & I think that's exactly how it should be. I'm 100% right by being unclear about half the time because this way, I make space for others to help me + share their gifts with me. I'm learning to be vulnerable.
I used to be very graceful about life, asking very little of it & being content of what I had. It was peaceful.. on the surface. Inside, I had this need for control. And my way of expressing it, when I didn't have control, was to fake that I was fine with that. Therefore, I didn't need help. Being right meant that I was independent – & I was very lonely in my perfection.
These days, I'm not sure of anything – & that's a good thing! I let others help + support me. I listen to them when they tell me what they love about me. I let myself need others, & in return, I find more pleasure in supporting them. I'm happy to be of genuine help to them.
I guess I used to be arrogant + cold. But that was by misinformation, because I've always wanted to do good in the world. I just thought it was a very individualistic one.
And I'm so relieved to find out that I was wrong on that one! :)
Have you ever had this kind of profound realization about life where it changes you down to your behavior + actions? Tell me in the comments, I'd love to know.