You are my mirror, dear friend. You fears, you flaws, your genius & talents – I can also find them in myself. You see, I'm a speck from the Universe, yet I hold it all in my soul. I am infinite and everything. Love, hate, beauty, ugliness, special, bland.
When it's bright & sunny, you know you are a divine spark of eternity.
When it's dark & gloomy, deep down you know too, although it's scary to hold the torch of hope high above your head.
Our heart always knows our connection to the Source, to our Self. You do not have to search very far. In fact, the quieter you are, and the more still you stay, the faster peace + joy will flood in. Each & every one of your cells will illuminate, your spirit will soar & your feeling will confirm what you've always known:
I'm confused often, at least I think so. Maybe that's just normal – who knows?! I reckon I'm confused about 50% of the time, meaning that I don't have a clear knowing of the path ahead of me. It sounds crazy, I'm sorry. I guess it's just tough to make sense of it, you know?
Anyway, so I'm often in the dark & I think that's exactly how it should be. I'm 100% right by being unclear about half the time because this way, I make space for others to help me + share their gifts with me. I'm learning to be vulnerable.
We sometimes inadvertently keep our dreams at arms-length distance because.. they're intangible, ungraspable dreams. We say they're dreams because we've told ourselves that we can't figure out how to make them our reality. How convenient, right?
It's not out of malice, but mostly out of fear. We would actually risk our wide-open heart, our vulnerability, if we went after a dream we idealize & cherish. Ouch!
So we keep ourselves stuck & it makes us miserable – until we consider this question:
Meltdowns are pretty much inevitable in life. If you know desire, you're bound to know failure + shortcomings. And meltdowns are a part of it. We break, we give up, we crack open. It feels horrible when we're in the midst of it. Thoughts we barely recognize our own crowd up our mind. Depression can take hold of us.
So instead of trying to hold ourselves together, despite the destructive forces taking us down, why not let it take us down? Why not cry compassionately? Why not be sensitive + fragile? Why not feel our sorrow?
You never know how your presence + your actions are playing their role in the world. Lately, I was convinced I had made a serious mistake, a true blunder. I felt very bad about it & I thought I had to compensate for it, because clearly I had come short of my true Self. But much to my surprise (& relief!), I had a conversation with the other person involved [...]
This is a conversation about plateau's – creative, financial, spiritual, any kind really. [Warning: I'm grumpy today.]
We dream, & with dedication + luck, those dreams come true. It's fantastic right? That's what we had hoped for & it's happening. More success on our terms – yay!
For a while, we soak it in, rest a little (we expanded a lot of energy to get there), savor the moment.
This is my favorite moment of the week: I'm in a café on one of my favorite streets of the city, working just for myself. Cozy with my almond chaï latte or hot chocolate, I plan, I dream, I write, I create. Time for me, myself & I. A quiet bubble in my week, to reconnect to myself & do what I love most.
This is a sacred moment that I cherish so much! I leave outside the door my worries, arguments or obligations. I walk here with my laptop, my journal, my planner & I stop for a moment. Time to reflect, time to breathe, time to stop.. so that I can better continue on.
When I was pregnant, I used to go to yoga up to four times a week. I was attending the regular hatha & vinyasa classes and I modified the postures as I needed. I remember, at about 7 or 8 months pregnant, to have more & more difficulty challenging myself physically as my big belly just hindered me so much in my movements. I asked my teacher before a class: Am I still doing yoga if I just can't get in the poses? He took a moment to ponder, than he gave me his answer.
In my experience, being creative happens to me almost by accident, by chance. I am driven by my passion, yet what I create often bewilders me. It is much bigger than me, my sole capacity probably did not bring this forth.
What has, then? I believe in a co-creative Universe. By making the necessary preparations, one open themselves up to receiving a response – an inspiration. Your whole self needs to be ready: your body, your mind, your emotions, your intellect, etc. You don't need to be in top condition at the time of creating, but you need to be fit nonetheless.
This week, I saved my cat's life. It took overall an hour before she was safe & sound. Afterward, I was shaken & this episode confronted me to my primal desire to stay alive. What is driving ME to fight for my life? What is my mission on Earth? Is the way I am spending my time + energy aligned with my aspirations & my potential?
Some days are definitely better than others. What's a spiritual seeker to do when anger wells up inside, mean + aggressive thoughts are roaming her mind, & she's basically a mess? (Can you relate?)
The thing to do is to dissolve and transmute anger into peace. The quietness of peace will allow for joy to rise up again & find your energy back – dare I say your purpose too? Yes, of course.
You know how some people are just inextricably gloomy all the time? Whatever happens, it's bad.
Well, the opposite is happening to me in the past few weeks. I am irrepressibly happy, I can't stop smiling! Even when some much desired events didn't turn out as I'd have wished, I felt grateful, blissful even. Earlier this week, I was at a very sweaty vinyasa yoga class and grinned the whole time. It felt so good!
I won a full scholarship to Gabrielle Bernstein's Spirit Junkie Masterclass a month ago and today, I'm sending my last report. It seems only fitting that I do so after a full moon eclipse from earlier this week. Now is the time to reflect and integrate my lessons. I would love to celebrate, but I feel rather quiet.
In honor of what I've learned and in gratitude for this amazing opportunity, I would like to share with you my 3 favorite lessons from the program:
We've all been hurt, wronged or humiliated in our lives. The question I'm interested in is: how do you let go? How do you release your victim mentality & move on? How do you forgive?
I used to hang on to the anger. I would say nothing to the person or lash out in full fury. I started noticing my own limiting beliefs & forgiving myself. I recognized that their words would be a reflection of my own thoughts, so I decided to love myself first. Then, I prayed for help to forgive genuinely. It helped extinguish the fire that was in me. Finally, I've learned to do the mental shift myself. My intention makes it real + permanent.
Many of us practice yoga. It's a learning process, a spiritual path. But here's my question: do you surrender to joy & bliss in your asana + pranayama? Are you in a state of union when you're holding Warrior II?
From my experience, here are my 3 tips for cultivating samadhi equally during a sweaty vinyasa or a deep restorative practice:
This week, I want to talk about our own individual & unique contribution to the world. This is a topic that's very important to me because we all have something special to bring to the world – just because we're all different. Our very existence is miraculous and sharing our gifts makes the world a much better place!
I've been rather quiet this summer. I was home with my daughter & I wanted to reconsider my purpose for being in business. I was feeling confused, a little bit ashamed & doubtful.
So I played, started an Etsy shop (for my little one), & went camping. I sought out new mentors & ordered new books. Honestly, that was a difficult first step – to decide I was worth this purchase. And slowly but surely, I started feeling better.
What is your inspiration for creating your best life & your legacy?
Maybe you have rituals that invite the muse, the divine guidance. Maybe you cultivate wonder & see God in everyday's details. Maybe you meditate + breathe to quiet the chatter in your mind & listen to your intuition.
Do you know when to let go of these external tools?